You are not alone

Yesterday was a rough day.
I gave my husband a chance to read my blog.
To make it very clear. I didn’t make it to be perfect .I am not perfect nor I ever will be.
The only feedback I’ve got is that I’ve made some spelling mistakes.

English is not my native language. I learn it from songs that I was listening to on the radio when I was a kid .
I decided to write this blog in English for several reasons. Mainly ,because I hope that maybe someday ,there will be a girl or a boy out there, with eating disorder or depression, that would be able to relate to the things that I write about. And maybe, just maybe they will feel like they are not alone ,that they can relate to someone .

My meeting with Dietician was very much needed. I was trying to make it an online meeting ,as I didn’t feel like seeing other people . I’m happy that she made me come to her. I was very upset after the whole day of not having a normal conversation with my husband .I felt like a complete looser. I made mistakes ,therefore I’m a looser . That’s what overthinking does to you . That + very low self esteem . It’s so easy to bring someone down specially if they doubt themselves almost every step they make .

Ok. That was yesterday.

I don’t want to feel sorry for myself .I make changes in my life every day . Maybe they do not sound big enough for you , but they are huge for me. So maybe , just maybe I’m not a looser after all.

all right all right all right

I did good in the last 2 days .No binge . No secret eating. A little butter-well actually it’s hard to call it butter ,it’s light, good for people with high cholesterol ,have no taste ,but is full of Omega 3 oils which I heard are good for humans. I continue to use less milk .Coffee is always sugar free .

If I was not on my period right now, and in process of switching my medication levels, I could even dare to say that I do quite all right .

Tomorrow -meeting with dietitian .