Day 3 & 4
I was occupied the whole day yesterday. I didn’t binge. I have manage to stay away from baklava for a day.
You know, those 3 pieces that I could not shut up about in previous posts .
After all, they were in the fridge, unnoticed by the rest of the family. I didn’t eat them yesterday though. My first thought was, that my husband is going to find out. I wrote about it here. He was not able to see this blog yet, but once it happens, he is going to judge me. Everyone will judge me.
Today I broke.
This voice in my head was even more intense after I was done eating. “You can always tell him that it was covered with mould, so I throw it away” or “I didn’t want to be tempted so I throw it away “.Then I thought- maybe I should just throw it away ???? On the other hand, it is food, why would I throw away food??? Maybe I should give it to one of my family members? But wait, it’s not a healthy snack, so why would I give it away?
Fucking Baklava.
Overthinking is hell. Overthinking about food is sickness.
Heavy Side of Life 